February 09, 2003 at 1:44 a.m.

My weekend is off to a normal, boring, nothing exciting about it start. I've mostly stayed home, except for going and renting a couple movies. I hate not doing anything on the weekends. Makes them seem like a waste. Mindy showed up at the house today. She brought one of her friends with her. She didn't stay long, and really had nothing too interesting to say. But hey..she did bring some homemade snacks for us. That's always a plus.

I've had these not fun headaches the past 2 days. I dealt with it all through school Friday, and I thought I was going to vomit. It seems like they come on everytime I go out into the cold air. They suck majorly, but nothing a good tylenol can't fix. Oh and a good nap.

February 06, 2003 at 4:44 p.m.

I feel crappy that I haven't written on this since January 5. That's well over a month. I must say that nothing overly excited has happend. School, that's about it. Not much longer to go..13 1/2 days. I'm finally finished with my part of the yearbook, so Hughes don't bitch at me anymore. She's actually throwing a party for me...probably because she's happy that I'm leaving.

Speaking of Yearbook, one of the co-editors just announced today that she's pregnant and getting married. I couldn't believe it. I mean, she's so not the type...straight A's, going to IU..really smart. Sucks to be her actually. Basically she's ruined her life. So that's two staff members having babies now.

I kind of have a new "crush". I actually think this one likes me back. Shane isn't the best looking guy ever -- cute, but sometimes feminine. He's real fun to hang out with though. We meet in the library everyday during lunch. Turns out he's rich...his dad is a lawyer and lives next to Reggie Miller. Hmm. Anyway, I wish he'd say something to me, because I'm really not comfortable with making that first move. At least not yet.

The day after I get out of school I'm going to see Nick Carter! I'm excited...haven't seen him since the BSB Millennium tour. I hope we can get in front row...I would so freak out. Bad thing is, the show is in Milwaukee and that means Jen will be tagging along. She better not treat me like a child, I hate that. But hopefully she can act civil for 24 hours.

January 05, 2003 at 2:36 a.m.

It's been all through Winter break since I've written in here. I kind of have a lot to say, but I might say it as short and non-boring as I possibly can.

I was so glad for break to finally start. Christmas was such a fun time. I got everything from clothes, digital camera, cds, dvds, purses, Tommy Girl perfume and all kinds of other stuff. I love Christmas time...and it even snowed here all through Christmas!

My mom had me work at her work everyday but Christmas Eve and New Years Eve. I hated not getting to sleep in, but it was money. I just got my first check and it was almost $200. She's making me save money into a bank account too. I need to buy a car, plus she wants me to pay for some college stuff.

New Years was kinda boring, as usual. I have never done anything on New Years Eve. My whole family stayed home and watched the Pacer game, and then we wanted a movie that we rented. We always stay home...when I'm in college...I'm gonna party. My mom did fix me a drink though.

Now break is almost over. It's the last weekend. I only have like 6 weeks of school to go, but I still don't want to go back. I hope a blizzard comes. Last night my parents had to go pick up Amanda and Aryana. Amanda's house doesn't have any heat and it was like 17º in her house, so they came and stayed at our house. I feel so sorry for the babies. Amanda needs to get a job and get her act together.

December 22, 2002 at 2:48 p.m.

Finally it's Christmas break. I love this time of year, ok, so I'll admit, I LOVE presents! I absolutely can't wait to see what my parents got me. My mom said that I'm getting some "very nice" things. Hopefully I get some of the stuff I asked for. Unfortunitely, my mom is making me work at with her everyday during break...that includes Christmas Eve and New Year's Eve. Now that I am 18, I really really want to do something fun, besides stay home, on New Year's Eve. I've never done anything ever on New Years.

December 18, 2002 at 1:29 a.m.

Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me...yeah ya'll know the song :-) But yes! I am finally 18!!!! Woo Hoo! Um, I can drink in Mexico. Not that I live there, or am going there anytime soon. Unfortunitely, I've been sick since Sunday. I work up Sunday morning and started vomiting -- yes, it was disgusting. Therefore, I haven't been to school yet this week. I have to go tomorrow. I have stuff to get done before break starts on Friday. (YIPPEE!!). I just want some presents dangit. For my birthday Mindy got me all kinds of stuff from Ball State. It rocked my world! Go Mindy!

December 11, 2002 at 11:59 p.m.

I decided it was time for a new layout. I really, really, really like this one! It's a good time. I thought all my other layouts used too much pink. Time for a change.

Everybody at my house has been sick lately. I haven't gotten it that bad yet. DeAnn is sick right now.

Things are going okay right now. Luckily it is almost my birthday and Christmas break. I'm really excited about Christmas. I love the holidays. Honestly...I'm ready for presents. There are already several to me sitting in the dining room wrapped up. I'm so curious :-)

December 10, 2002 at 12:56 a.m.

I got another review! It's from Bop Reviews It was actually fairly decent. Yay! It mentioned that I haven't been updating...which is completely honest. Sorry sorry sorry! By the time I get online at night I check a few e-mails and then crawl into bed. I've been sick off and on...nose bleeds and sinus infections. I stayed home from school last Thursday and today.

On a better note -- 8 days until I am finally 18! Better yet...7 days of school left until Christmas Break. It's about time. School is driving me mad. I hate getting up early. Not so much the work, it's going that I hate.

December 02, 2002 at 11:34 a.m.

I am totally neglecting my diary. I only think that like 3 people read it, but still I want to keep it updated for me to look back on in the future.

Thanksgiving break was nice, but 4 days was still not enough. Christmas break is more my style. Dinner was so good, I wish I had a big plate of that food right now. I'm so hungry. I've chosen not to eat lunch at school this year. Friday DeAnn and I went to see the Pacers take on the Washington Wizards featuring Michael Jordan. Yay rah. I love Pacer games. Especially when they beat the crap out of Jordan. I will admit though, I like going with my daddy the best. It is something we can enjoy together.

Things are finally beginning to fall into place. On Saturday I received my acceptance letter from Ball State University! I was so excited, and it was a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders. I was so worried that with my low SAT/ACT scores that they wouldn't accept me. BSU even sent me a little decal for my car -- they just forgot to send me the car that went with it -- HAHA!

November 24, 2002 at 6:01 p.m.

I haven't written in forever. I've been so busy since the trimester ended and new classes started. So now I have:

Orientation to Life & Careers -- Don't ask me why I took this. It's going to be a breeze.

Economices -- I'm actually going to have to force myself to study. We have quizzes every single day. However, I do sit by...Max! My prayer was answered. So what if he hasn't even said a single word to me yet.

Computer Applications - Another breeze.

Composition - I like this class, and this class likes me :-)

Yearbook - no comment.

I've actually had homework though. I can't remember the last time I had homework. The only assignments I've ever done at home in years has been big projects or papers. Now I'm getting book work homework.

The kiddies came over this weekend. Joey is getting so big! I love him to death, I don't ever want him to sleep because I like playing with him. Aryana is so precious too, she's talking like an adult.

Got my senior picture proofs back today. I'm so psyched -- I actually love 'em. Can't wait to get them all back so I can give them out. They turned out really well.

November 13, 2002 at 11:59 p.m.

Things are finally back to normal at home. I got into a huge fight with my parents the other night. It was pretty crazy, but I don't feel like going into detail. All I will say is that my mom should buy me a few new picture frames.

My speech teacher invited me to join Debate during third trimester. I can't though, since I am graduating after second trimester. I felt honored though, only speech teachers can ask you to join the class.

I'm so glad O-Town's CD is finally out! Yay! I've only been waiting to listen to it since last June. It's awesome. I'm so very proud of those guys. They deserve the best. Now I'm ready for the next tour...It's been 5 months since I've seen them live!

Finals start tomorrow. I never study for finals. If I don't know it by now, I won't know it!

November 11, 2002 at 11:43 p.m.

Senior-itis. I've definitely got it. I'm becoming so lazy. I worked hard during the first grading period, and now that the second is about over, all of my A's have dropped to B's. Don't get me wrong, B's are great, but they aren't A's. Finals begin Thursday. I'm going to miss Government class. I am not looking forward to Economics. It's going to be so boring. I just know it. I've got the teacher that always lectures.

Today was our Government class's Veteran's Day Flag Dedication Ceremony. It went really well, and our class had a lot of fun. It made me realize how much I'll really miss that class. Can't we just stay there? Max looked so adorable in his shirt and tie, and leather jacket. All the guys were sweethearts today. Not that they are mean any other time, they were just overly nice today. It was great actually. Of course the day was ruined by having to go to our last hour class -- yearbook for me.

November 10, 2002 at 10:25 p.m.

It's been an incredibly busy weekend. I finally got my senior pictures taken! My uncle is a photographer so we took some outdoors by a bridge and a pond and some indoor shots. I am praying that they turn out wonderful!! The American Idol concert rocked so hard! Things only halfway turned out how I wanted them to. I'm just going to paste an email that I wrote in here, because I'm too lazy to retype all of it.

I took the day off school to go downtown to try and meet some of the American Idols. My cousin and my sister and I found the hotel very easily...they were at the fanciest most expensive hotel in Indy. There were 3 buses parked out front, but the lobby of the hotel was dead. So, we went inside the mall to have lunch. When we came back outside there were 4 other people out there. We asked if anybody had been out yet. This guy said yes, they all came out about five minutes ago. He said they all stopped and took pictures and stuff . I seriously almost cried....I couldn't believe we missed them by just a few minutes. UGH!!! We did see Ryan come out but she didn't acknowledge anyone. Jim was standing in the front of the bus and started waving to us. So that was cool. After that we went to the venue and talked this scalper into giving us 7th row for face value. Otherwise our seats were in the last row of the floor. So, at least we ended up wtih awesome seats. I absolutely loved the show, I had a blast. Justin is just so beautiful...I was in awe of him. LOL, my parents even went to the show. They had lower level seats...decent. I won them for them from a tv station. My dad thinks Justin is so cool. haha. Even though they said disposable cameras only, I snuck my zoom camera in and took 5 rolls of film.

November 07, 2002 at 1:08 a.m.

Tomorrow is the big night! Finally, I get to see that hottie Justin Guarini live! Oh how I wish I had better seats. I'm so spoiled with good seats it's not funny. I do however, think that my mother has agreed to let me stay home! YAY!

November 06, 2002 at 12:14 p.m.

I finally gave my speech today. I think it went fairly well. I'm so bored right now. I work way too fast in Computer Applications class. I should be in advanced.

Tomorrow is the American Idol concert. I can't wait, I'm so excited. I really, really, really, really hope that we somehow get our seats upgraded. Hopefully Mindy is working on that. I'll be so upset if I can't see or get decent pictures.

I'm thinking of changing my layout again, already. I was also thinking that I need more people coming to look at my diary. I'm guessing maybe three people have ever been to my diary. I need to advertise.

November 05, 2002 at 11:52 p.m.

I want a boyfriend. I've only had one, and it was kind of an odd relationship. Like I mentioned before -- Mike has dissappeared. I miss talking to him late at night. I'm guessing he'll show up sooner or later.

Max -- this adorable guy in my government class, well I don't think he's interested. I know that he knows that I like him. Several people have told him, I think. I'm going to miss his cute little face when classes change in 8 days. That makes me sad.

I wish my mom would let me stay home Thursday. DeAnn is staying home, and Mindy is going to be down here. I know I've missed a lot of school, but with finals coming up, one more day is not going to matter. I haven't even asked her; I'm afraid to. I wish DeAnn would ask her for me. She probably won't.

November 04, 2002 at 12:48 p.m.

I'm sitting in Computer Applications class right now. I'm finished with a project, so I have nothing to do. I'm actually very close to falling over, and falling asleep. Today I started asking this kid in my Government class about the guy I like -- because they appear to be friends. So, the kid got all loud with his answers, therefore, the guy I like probably knows that I like him now. I'm over it. In a few minutes I have to go to Yearbook. I really am not in the mood to deal with Ms. Hughes. I never am. Luckily I did not have to give my speech today...barely. I seriously would have been screwed -- she randomly started calling people up to give theirs. It was a miracle that she didn't call me up. I might have cried.

November 04, 2002 at 12:48 a.m.

I can't believe I went all weekend without updating. DeAnn and I went to try and win some American Idol tickets Saturday, we got a pair, but not as good as what we already had. So, now my parents are going too. The show is Thursday, and I really want to meet Justin, hopefully get some better seats as well. I'm going to try to get out of school, but it will take some work.

My family has been kind of bitchy with me all weekend. Especially DeAnn. She wants me to buy my own Nelly ticket now, but I have to spend my check on senior pictures, which I'm having taken this Saturday. Whatever.

I have a speech to give either tomorrow or Tuesday. I hate giving speeches. I'm not scared that much, it's just a hassle. I'm not ready at all to give it tomorrow. I haven't even really planned out my notecards or anything. People better volunteer tomorrow, or I'm screwed. I also have a rough draft story due for Yearbook, that I haven't even interviewed people for yet. Dammit, yearbook sucks majorly. I can't wait until I'm finished with it. Hughes hates me, so I'll be better off.

Mike has kind of dissappeared. I haven't heard from him at all in over a week now. Maybe he's avoiding me for some reason. If so, it shouldn't take long to get over him. :-)

November 01, 2002 at 12:40 a.m.

My mom ordered what I wanted for graduation. She originally said she'd just buy the announcements and cap and gown, but then she also said I could order an extra tassle, and a memory book. She spent $133.95 on this stuff. I think she felt bad because I wouldn't be getting everything I wanted. I'm thankful that she let me order all of the stuff I really wanted though. It sucks to be the cool kid, without the cool stuff. I mean, I already am one of the few students with no car or no cellphone.

October 31, 2002 at 4:27 p.m.

Happy Halloween! I've got no plans for tonight. Survivor is on so I'll be watching that tonight. I mean, we're passing out candy, but nothing big. I'm a little old for trick-or-treat. I'm so glad I finally got my project finished and turned in! What a freakin' nightmare. Next time I'm just writing the damn paper. DeAnn was being a bitch last night. So I called her one. It sprung up this big arguement and I told her to go to hell. She's not too happy with me, but oh well, she deserved it.

There's this adorable guy in my U.S. Government class named Max. He's new to my school this year, and I'm all about him...nobody else knows it. He's really smart too. He takes Calculus and Physics and stuff. What sucks is that after this trimester ends in 2 and a half weeks; the chances of me having another class with him are very, very small. :-(

October 30, 2002 at 12:49 a.m.

1 more day to finish my project. It's still nowhere near done. I'm going to have to spend tomorrow at the library just like I did today. I stayed there for 2 hours today. Graduation stuff is so expensive. It shouldn't cost that much money to graduate. I'm so excited though. I can't wait to get announcements and cap & gown. Finally my turn.

October 29, 2002 at 12:48 a.m.

I hate the fact that my family is so short on money. Such a bad time too, right at my senior year. Tomorrow is time to order announcements, cap & gown, etc. It's going to be so expensive, and I'm afraid I'm not going to be able to get all of the stuff I've been wanting for the past four years. I can't get a copy of the senior class photo, because it's $20 and that's a "bit expensive". I'll regret not ordering one later, but the payment is due tomorrow. Dammit.

October 27, 2002 at 10:48 p.m.

I can't believe the weekend is already over. It sucks. Now I don't get another break until Thanksgiving. That seems forever away. I slept late today. I woke up a couple of times because some ass was making noise outside, but other than that I slept until almost 3 in the afternoon. I talked to Mike for awhile last night. He started getting really crappy wtih me, and then all the sudden he was cool again. It was odd. Anyway, I worked on my project a lot today and I still have a lot to do for it. I have four days to finish it.

October 27, 2002 at 2:14 a.m.

Ok, so the ACTs suck. Not quite as bad as the SATs, but they still suck. However, the hottie from my Government class was there. That helped. Getting up at 6:30 on a Saturday...didn't. Last night my family went to dinner. We had this waiter who was probably my age. We were so flirting. It was a good time...I should go back there...soon. I hope he didn't think Adam was my boyfriend though. I hate that.

October 25, 2002 at 10:28 a.m.

Although nothing that exciting has happend, I find myself writing right now. I'm at work with my mom. She's in a meeting, so there's nothing for me to do right now. Adam works here too. He came in and told me that he talked to the President of the Tri-Sigma sorority about me. Mindy was a Tri-Sigma and that's Adam's sister sorority. I guess the president really wants to meet me and said "I'm so in". That's kinda cool. I want to join a sorority if I go to Ball State. I guess it would be cool to already have an in somewhere. I would already know some people. I mean, as much as he gets on my nerves, it would be a good time probably. I wish I was still in bed. I'm definitely sleeping in on Sunday. I just realized...it was 2 years ago today that me, Mindy, and DeAnn met Chris from *Nsync. Ah, the good 'ole days. I wish things were still like that.

October 24, 2002 at 11:48 p.m.

Woo Hoo! Yay! No school tomorrow! Ok, so it sucks that my mom is having me go work for her, but it's still better than school. And I get to sleep like 10 minutes later. Adam called me today telling me that he's getting a 4 bedroom apartment up at Ball State and that I can come stay with him. He's all telling me that I can go to the parties with his fraternity and stuff. Right. For one my parents wouldn't go for that, and for two...I really doubt that he's that cool with the party people. Whatever. I got an application for Purdue today. I wouldn't mind going there, but I've never seen the campus. I keep telling the 'rents to take me up there. They say they will...but they haven't yet. It was Survivor night at my house. Pizza and Survivor. Thank God Robb finally got voted off, because he was a jerk...and was really getting on my last nerve.

October 24, 2002 at 12:05 a.m.

I had one more thing to say tonight. I got my first diary review! It was from Sweet-Views and it was so sweet! I got an 86/90!!! She gave me a lot of awesome advice, so I'm really glad I submitted to be reviewed. You all should go check it out! Ok, really I need to get ready for bed. The last thing I want is to be tired tomorrow.



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