May 21, 2003 at 12:32 p.m.

Yes, Britny wants a boyfriend. It's been too damn long. I have been talking to this guy, but right now I don't know what we are. He used to really be into me and asked me out a lot, but now it's the opposite. I really am starting to like him, but he's a little less interested now. True, he does have a lot going on in his life right now, so maybe that is just it. Maybe we'll end up hooking up sometime.

I have to work all this week. It's day 3 of 5 and it's already getting on my nerves. This is my fullest week since I've been out of school and of course it's the same week I have to work. Figures.

May 01, 2003 at 11:15 a.m.

Sometimes I don't feel like typing my thoughts up twice, so I'm copying and pasting from an e-mail that I wrote to a list.

Yes, I was as shocked as anyone last night when Ruben was in the bottom 2, but come on, let's not start a riot...he wasn't kicked off. The same thing happend to Justin last season. I'm just trying to come up with my own explanations of why it occured. 1.) Since everyone thinks that Ruben will win anyway, they figure he didn't "need their vote", so they didn't vote. 2.) The numbers of the 5 people were just THAT CLOSE! At least it was hella exciting, right?!?!?!

Ok, on to a better topic...Justin! Damn, he is fine fine a million times fine! And that song...YUMMY! I'm so excited for his album, he rocks my world. What's even funnier is that I'm pretty sure he rocks my mother's world as well :) But seriously, him and Kelly can stop fibbing about their relationship...I mean, they are rarely seen without eachother.

Last weekend I went to the AI Mall tour. It was a real fun time. My sister and I got their way too early so needless to say we got front and center. The whole people doing kareoke got on my nerves somewhat, but at least Rickey and Ejay were on stage during that. I figured out Vanessa is a sweetheart..she stayed out talking to fans and signing autographs throughout the whole thing. Finally at the end I got Rickey's autograph and a hug, he is so adorable and I love the way he seriously does not stop smiling!

April 30, 2003 at 2:52 p.m.

I decided to change my layout again. I figured I needed to give Clay some lovin'. He's so awesome, I can't wait to see him on July 12. Yay! I'm at work right now, and I was bored so I thought I would go ahead and change my layout.

Found out that I have to go for orientation at BSU on July 24 and 25. My summer is filling up so quickly, but that is a good thing. No word on whether LA is a definite go though. My mom thinks my sister and I are arguing too much to go on a trip together, but I don't care. After mom's court date on June 13, we can figure out what we're doing for the family vacation. Las Vegas is back in the talks now. I just want to go somewhere fun and somewhat relaxing.

I mailed out all of my graduation announcements yesterday. What really sucks is that I have to have my party at our house - which means way more cleaning than I care to do. And I know my mom is going to make me do most of it. It sucks, I try to keep the house clean all the time but her and DeAnn are pretty much slobs. They think that since they worked all day they don't have to lift a finger. I'm sick of it.

April 17, 2003 at 12:42 a.m.

Can't believe I haven't written in so long. Some bitch left me a stupid message saying that I have no real thoughts. I don't know what is up with that. I can't get into her diary because she has it locked, wonder why?!

I've mostly been working and sleeping too much. I'm making pretty good money, I've saved up quite a bit, but still not enough for a car. I have this week all off, so it's been wonderful. I sleep during the day and stay up all night. My parents hate it, but oh well.

I might be getting to go to Los Angeles. DeAnn is going for some training and I might just get to fly out and spend the weekend in California with her. Hopefully I can go because my parents say that I have to pay for it.

We've been trying to pick a spot for our family vacation this year. My mom wants to drive somewhere so right now we're looking at either Biloxi Mississippi or Destin/Panama City Florida. Either is fine with me, I just want to chill on the beach.

March 22, 2003 at 2:50 a.m.

It's so strange that the U.S. is at war right now. Nothing really seems that different over here, at least not to me. I hope everything turns out alright, the last thing America needs is another tragedy. And I wish all these protesters would just stop. I mean, we're just trying to help another country, not hurt them on purpose.

Being out of school is wonderful. I have so much freedom. I really don't even mind going to work that much. As a matter of fact, I've already made almost $500 since I've been out of school. It's great.

I've been thinking about having special surgery. I don't really want to talk about it - but I've been thinking about it.

March 05, 2003 at 12:54 p.m.

I have quite a bit to write in here today. Some good things - some not so good things. That's life I guess.

I had a blast going to Milwaukee to see Nick Carter. We didn't get front row, but we were right up close. Sometimes things got a little out of control and we all thought we wouldn't make it out alive. Nick kicked ass though -- wow he looked so freakin' hot! Luckily Jen didn't spend the whole day with us. Mindy's friend Meghan did though -- I like her, she's a lot of fun.

Grandpa's birthday was the day after the show. We had to rush back from our hotel in Chicago. Dee, Min and me were so exhausted. Our whole family went out to dinner with grandpa. Didn't have the best place in the world, but he really enjoyed everyone being there.

My daddy was put into the hospital that same night. At work he had gotten a splinter in his hand and it caused a major infection. Since he's diebetic, it's gotten worse. He's still in there now, and unfortunitely couldn't go to the Billy Joel/Elton John show. DeAnn, Me, Mindy and my Uncle Larry went. It was good, not what I'm used to though.

I've been working the past 2 days. I'm so glad school is over, but I still hate getting up at the crack of dawn. At least I'm getting paid to get up early now. If you love me then you'll click the following link:

February 27, 2003 at 5:27 p.m.

Today was my last full day of school. I go until 10:50am tomorrow for my Econ and Comp finals. Today was also my last day on Yearbook staff. Hughes didn't even acknowledge that I'd be gone from now on. Actually nobody really did. It kind of bothered me, but oh well. I guess everyone has their own lives.

Shane mentioned today that after tomorrow we wouldn't see eachother anymore until graduation. That did bother me. I want to hang out with him, but I just can't tell him that. I'm afraid he'll think I'm joking, or he'll say something I don't want to hear. I guess I'll just be stopping by his work frequently just so I can talk to him.

February 26, 2003 at 12:28 a.m.

Over the weekend my parents bumped into Kristina at Great Clips. I was surprised to find out that Kristina happily talked with them. I guess she told my parents that she doesn't know what exactly happend between me, her and Chelsea. Also, her and Chelsea aren't friends anymore either. Strange. My mom really built me up to her. Telling her how I'm going off to college soon and right now I'm working for her company. I think Kristina was always jeolous of me, because I was smarter than she was. My mom said she told her to stop by the house anytime, that she was welcome. Right. Like that will ever happen. Kristina probably doesn't want to speak with me. I don't know why, but if she did I figure she would have called me or spoken to me already.

Two more days left of school and then I go until 10am on Friday. I can't wait. I'm so ready to be done and have HS over with. Not that I want to start working everyday, but I am just completely tired of school.

I feel horrible right now. I have a nasty cough and it's making everything else hurt. I can't stay home because of course my mom fears the worst (about what school will say). I have to be better by this weekend. This damn cold better not ruin my time seeing Nick Carter. I'm hella excited about that. Please, Please, Please let us get front row!

February 15, 2003 at 2:01 a.m.

Valentine's Day really isn't that great for me. Since I'm not married or anything, let alone have a boyfriend. It wasn't too awful bad today though. First off, school was closed because we were "suppossed" to get a big ice storm...that didn't end up coming until late this evening. My family went out to dinner downtown, and then DeAnn and I went to the Pacer game. I really wanted to just go see a movie, but she basically made me go to the game. She's such a baby sometimes. It was pretty fun...except for the first half I really didn't feel too great. Since we had just ate dinner and our seats were almost at the top of the arena, plus we had to rush to make it on time...I felt sick to my stomach by the time we got to our seats. Well hey, at least they won...barely.

February 11, 2003 at 10:52 a.m.

Normally I don't mind snow. However, this year has been horrible. It snows almost every other day. Today was especially bad. I didn't get to school until 8AM. Almost everyone was late...we've been watching a lot of movies today in class. I don't know why they didn't call a 2 hour delay. Probably because those bastards don't have to leave in the snow at 6:45 in the morning. The roads were scary this morning. Couldn't see the roads, traffic was moving at under 5 miles per hour, it was bad. I really, really just want it to be spring.

February 10, 2003 at 1:14 p.m.

Dammit, I just found out that Shane actually has a girlfriend. So, maybe he doesn't like me...I guess he is just being friendly. But does a guy usually just ask you for not one but two of your pictures? I don't know...maybe it's not a real serious girlfriend. I guess I just never thought about him having a girlfriend. Dammit. I hate it when things never turn out like I would like them to. I mean, I can't see myself getting real serious with him, but I wouldn't mind hanging out with him more, like outside of school. He obviously wants to be around me. He tells me to come to the library with him everday during our lunch, and just little stuff like that. I could have swore he was looking down my shirt the other day...I don't think he could see anything but...

I wish I had days left of school to miss. I have a horrible cold. My nose feels like it's all stretched out. Something tells me the school don't really care about how many days I'm missing right now, either A) because I have good grades or B) because I'm graduating in 12 1/2 days. But my mom doesn't buy that. She always thinks the worst. I'm burning up - I swear I have a fever.



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